I still feel a little uncertain about this, but this year (2011), I’m choosing “real” as my word of the year.
I want my dream of writing a book to become real this year. Well – correction — I’m already writing it. So it is becoming real. But I want to get done with it. Submit it to the publisher. Make it move from manuscript to finished “reality” – a published book.
I also realize I need to do a little “getting real” with myself, too. Real-ly- what do I want out of life, myself, my career, my geographic location, the place I call home? Where is “home”, real-ly, for me? What do I want to become real in my life in the coming year?
What is the real issue(s) between myself and my family member(s) that makes in-person communication so painful? What is really behind all of my anger, which seems increasingly manifesting itself in my life, even when I try to put reins on it and bring it under my control, like a startled and panicky horse. I thought I’d gotten past the point of being an angry temperamental child decades ago. Apparently not.
The promising starts I made on some new efforts this past fall – will they become real, too? It’s hard to know, very ethereal by nature – but I suppose I will “know them when I see them.”
And now, let me look briefly back. My words last year were:
Persistence and Patience
Both of them I chose mostly as they related to my book. Well, the book is still in progress, though I’m much much further along now than when I posted on New Year’s of 2010. My persistence has definitely paid off, because I really am very close to nearly finishing up my manuscript.
Patience….well, I always need help with patience. It is just not in my nature to be patient. I noticed this with family over the holidays. Not pretty. But I am trying to be patient with myself as I continue working on my book. And having faith that I will be able to see it through to completion. I want to make it REAL. I believe it will be, very soon, in 2011.
© 2011, writingreading