2-4-6-8, Why do I procrastinate?

February 18, 2009

Ah, yes, my all-too-familiar clingy “friend” – procrastination – is back! Booo!

I’ve realized over the past couple of weeks that my avoidance of working on my book definitely is the symptom of something larger. It has moved from simple procrastination to outright avoidance – and that is serious. The good news is, is that I am still trying to get myself to write. It has not turned into apathy or disinterest. But I have had a distinct inability to simply sit down and do it!

Of course, there are the usual methods for avoiding – which I’ve already enumerated elsewhere.  But it has been happening enough lately, on a consistent basis, that I know Something must be happening.

I think a large part of it is fear. And strangely enough, I think it is “fear of completion.” I still have a long ways to go before I am finished, but I do feel like I am nearing the end stages – I can at last see and believe that I can get it completed.

Probably part of my fear of completion is a very real fear that I won’t know what to do after that happens. The subject of my book (which I never directly talk about here, online) is something that I have had as my “heart’s mission” for years, now. My book has been my passion, in some form, for over a decade. (It’s only over the past two years that I began writing it, however. Because it is non-fiction, the rest of the time was spent in research.) So, maybe it is like the “empty-nest” syndrome. I just simply can’t imagine my life without it.

In any case, fearful of my fear, but determined to overcome it and kick-start my writing again, I did a quick google search on the topic of “why am I afraid to finish writing my book” and found a few good articles on the subject – and they all include remedies!

Linda White Dove has some good advice about changing the parameters of your work. Kind of a “when life gives you lemons..” type of approach. I admit I don’t understand much about the rest of her website, but I did appreciate the article she had about her own struggles with staying on the writing task.

I also really liked what Earma Brown had to say. She has a lot of good tips that are down to earth, understanding, and practical.

And finally, I think I found the information at Copyblogger to be the most helpful, because he writes directly and explicitly about the different kinds of fears we can have as writers.

I’ve printed all of these articles so I can keep them handy the next time I need them. And like the rain and floods, as well as droughts, I know the seasons of writing will come, and change. The tools, tips and suggestions from these authors will help get me through, and get me writing again!

© writingreading, 2009


Pictures, Poetry & Prose

February 16, 2009

Today a visual prompt I submitted was posted on Pictures, Poetry, & Prose! Even though it is out of the mainstream, in terms of the kinds of things she usually uses as prompts, it was very exciting to be accepted. It is really interesting to see how people are responding to it through their writing, and I’m looking forward to seeing more of what people write as the week progresses.

It’s not fair for me to post my own writing, there, in response to my own prompt, but I would like to take a stab at it, here.  I’m not going to post the visual, here, so that you will have to be sure and visit PP&P if you want to see it. Then, you can post your own writing in response to it there.

Here we go.

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It was an erratic heartbeat. A kthump-kthump followed by a long pause, then an awkward kthump, and another long suspenseful pause.  She felt herself slipping, succumbing, gasping for breath but not knowing how. She was becoming light-headed. Nearing unconsciousness. And she wasn’t sure she wanted to continue the struggle. Suffocating, she felt so helpless, and she felt her strength draining away. She loosened her grip, dropped her hand at her side.

Then awakened.

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This was totally spontaneous writing on my part. I created the visual about a week ago, just because it seemed to summarize how I was feeling at the time.  I haven’t thought much about it, or writing about it, since.

There were some other things that I had hoped would come out in my writing, above, but didn’t manage to find their way in there – maybe I should try again, in a completely new version, in a poem. The other images were more just about the visuals, anyway, so maybe I will try that just for grins on another day.  One of the recent Creative Every Day challenges was to write a poem. It’s been a long time since I’ve done that, so maybe this will give me incentive to give it a try!

© writingreading, 2009


Creative Every Day – Key to Winter

February 2, 2009

Today is the first prompt for the month of February at Creative Every Day. This is a bonus day, because Leah (of CED) is sharing her artwork at Pictures, Poetry and Prose to use as a writing prompt!

I love this picture Leah has created, and although I have not really explored it, yet, I really like what I am seeing at PP&P, too! If you are ever in need of a writing prompt, take a look. And if you really want to put the Every Day into your Creative – that’s another reason to visit the PP&P site.

I posted my writing, there at PP&P, but I will post it here as well. It might be interesting to read the writing, first, and then go visit the site to see the image that inspired it. I’d be interested in hearing from you about what you think about what I’ve written, as it relates to the image.

I’m being a little more literal here than I would like, but I do like some of the turns of phrase and expressions that came out of this.

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The lotus blossomed at her feet, and flowers surrounded her. Thistle, daisy, chrysanthemum. Tree branches stretched out their arms to envelope her, but she remained just out of their reach, pristine, cool, and dignified. Frozen sunlight danced through the morning air, splintering into prisms as she glided across the earth. A shadow-bird ruffled his feathers nearby, keeping watch over her shoulder. A woodland thrush chirrupped his perky greeting as he nestled in the loose leaves and twigs at her feet.

She was a striking image in the frozen landscape, bundled in her blue velvet bodice, warm beneath her long heavy wool skirt. Subdued, but festive, the blue-green accents on her charcoal skirt gave her a lively air, though her quiet respect for the land around her permeated her every step.

She breathed deeply of the morning air, letting its freshness fill the corners of her lungs. She exhaled, watching as the fog created by the warmth of her breath shone in the morning sun.

“The key to winter,” she had said to her husband, as she walked out the door, “is enjoying it while it is here.” She savored these days of brightness, of fresh snow and pastel twilight. She knew winter was a rare gift of sapphire, of frozen heat, and unacknowledged life.

© writingreading, 2009


Playing with Words

February 1, 2009

Since it is February 1st – and even though the Creative Every Day prompt won’t be coming out until tomorrow, I thought I’d start by picking up the theme from January and combining it with February. That gives me Play + Words – and I knew exactly what I wanted to do!

I came across Wordle some time back, and marked it to use in the future. Because the opening lines of Lewis Carroll’s Jabberwocky had recently come to mind, I thought I’d Wordle his poem. This seemed like a perfect poem to use for the idea of playing with words.

jabberwockywordleblog

I like the results!

© writingreading, 2009